In the darkness of my life,
I wander, lost and alone,
Each friend I make, each love I find,
Eventually fades and is gone.
I try so hard to please them all,
To keep them happy and near,
But in the end, I'm always left,
With nothing but my fear.
The weight of loneliness bears down,
Upon my weary soul,
And in the depths of my despair,
I feel I've lost control.
Should I just give up and die,
Or take revenge and kill?
Do I have any worth at all,
Or is this world just ill?
I long to find a place of peace,
Where I can disappear,
Where no one knows my name or face,
And I have nothing to fear.
But even in that solitude,
I fear I'll never find,
The sense of purpose and belonging,
That eludes my troubled mind.
So I'll keep searching, day by day,
For a way to ease my pain,
But the more I search, the more I find,
That darkness is all that will remain.
The light I once sought now fades,
And hope's a shattered beam,
For all that's left is agony,
A heart-wrenching, endless scream.
The shadows close in all around,
And there's no escape in sight,
I know that I am doomed to dwell,
In this eternal night.
So let me embrace the darkness,
And let it consume me whole,
For in this world of pain and fear,
I've lost all sense of control.